פורום נסיונות פעילים (עמוד 6318)

I have such a weird mood. I'm not depressed, but I'm not happy either. I don't feel anything but this odd feeling of nothing. I don't want to die, but I don't want to live, too. It's not like "I wish to disappear". It's more like… I wish I wasn't born. Everything would have been much easier that way to everyone.

I wish to my death every day, but when I feel good I can't give up the pain.

I can't explain to you guys what I want, or why I did what I did. I just want to say that I'm sorry I got into your life. And I mean all of you. I wish you all forget me and forgive me for my lies and my be‎havior.

I'm not going to disappear, but I'm going to stop the games and the clues.

You are going to forget me. And so will my friends in the real world.

I guess my family won't, but… one day I won't be here anymore. And all of you will live your life and I will watch you and help you, because I really love you.

I'm not sick, but I'm not healthy. I'm not me right now, but I'm not someone else.

There is good for all of us. I just can't find mine.

Love always, me.