It's like God is doing to me on purpose
I try very hard and then he makes it harder
and it is like i wanna cry for him- why? god why are you do this to me? you know i am really trying...
and it is like you are not with me
but sometimes, suddenly i see you,
with me.
like you say: hi, see it is not that bad. i am here looking at you.
and i gave you the last one.
i saw how bad you tried.
and yes god i want it so bad.
i dont know why i look at this in this crazy way,
but i can guess thet every one has the things they care about.
And God, I'm sure you'm proud of me