I guess one reason to talk in a different language is the kind of excitement it gives

But really I just wanted a different type of people to respond

Why don't you just learn Spanish or something? You have so much free time...

I have a lot of things to read. And there's always something to do in the house. I try to write and I just started  a new therapy which takes some hours every week

I want to know more languages, and Spanish is great, I just don't have enough time or power to do it

I don't know, maybe I'm just being lazy, but I have so much going on, even though I don't have a job and I don't go to school or something

Yes, I know what it feels like

And I'm aware of your situation... I just think you have a lot of potential that needs maximizing.

Why do you want to get married so much. Because you want kids?

I have plenty others. But I don't do anything about that because I don't think I'm ready yet. I mean, I do something- I improve myself every day so I will be in the right place. I know you're worried I'm expecting something that isn't real, but I trust myself. Just felt like I need to say it, I don't say that this is what you meant to say

Any way, I agree that I have a lot of potential that I do nothing with. I think I just take my time, cause every single time I tried to do something big I failed. I do believe I will get there someday. I'm pretty sure I will speak Spanish somewhen

I think that taking care yourself is exactly what you need to be doing right now.
The rest can come later. First you need to be fine with yourself.

I just wanted to say that if kids are the only reason, you don't necessarily need to get married. You can help in orphanages, help sick kids at the hospital... These are things you can do right now, and they will give you Joy and meaning.

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I wrote you an answer and I really liked the words that I chose and everything, and then my computer got crazy and everything that I wrote got deleted

 

any way, I said something about the fact that I still fight with myself to do simple things, but I just started a new therapy, so I hope it will change soon and I will be able to volunteer with kids or something

Yeah that's annoying. Happens to me all the time.

I trust you chose really nice words though.

Can you write a story in English?

About a girl your age, you situation, that finds a baby in a box on the street.
Can you try? It's a cool concept

well, not the exact same thing you described, and it was written in Hebrew, but it was nice for a couple of weeks. I think I wrote it here somewhere... I will look for it. It was cute and silly

 

I really don't want to find a kid. I want my kids to have two parents

Hey, its new. Never really thought about that, but I always wished for a baby in a way that didn't include someone else. Nice to notice that I'm normal

It's a primal need. Not something new...
Those who don't want kids are the weird ones, as it's mostly for selfish reasons.

There's a Korean movie about it. It has Hebrew translation I think. It's called baby and I.
You should watch it.

The new thing is that I want them to have a father, and not just a mother

 

I literally hate the Korean language. My friends used to watch some Korean TV shows and it was really terrible. I cant stand it, seriously

It's a good one.

What kind of father do you want for your kids?

and the ability (and will) to learn new things. I believe the rest will come with the time

Of course, by tomorrow I will have a bigger list, but not much bigger

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