ื”ึทื™ึผื•ึนื ืชึผึดืฉืึฐืขึธื” ื•ึฐืขึถืฉื‚ึฐืจึดื™ื ื™ื•ึนื ืœึธืขื•ึนืžึถืจื”ืžื™ื™ืœ ื”ืื“ื•ืื”ืžื™ื™ืœ ื”ืื“ื•ืื—ื™ืคื•ืฉ
ืคื•ืจื•ื ืจื™ืง ื•ืžื•ืกืชืจ

ื‘ื”ื ื”ืœืช: ืžื‘ื•ืœื‘ืœืช ืžืื“ื“ื“ื“
ืžื›ืชื‘ ืคืชื™ื—ื”
๐Ÿ˜ื‘ื™ืŸ ื”ื‘ื•ืจ ืœืžื™ื
ืžื™ืฉื”ื• ืฉื•ืจืง ื‘ื—ื•ืฅ
ืื• ืื•ืœื™ ื‘ืคื ื™ื
ื–ื” ืžืขื•ืจืจ ืœื™ ืžืฉื”ื• ื‘ืชื•ืš ื”ืœื‘
ืžื ื’ื™ื ื” ืžื•ื›ืจืช ืฉืœ ื—ื™ื™ื ืฉืœื ื ื’ืžืจื•
ืขื•ื‘ื“ื” ืฉื”ืกื‘ืœ ืขื•ื“ ื›ืืŸ
ืžืกืชื›ืœ ืœื™ ื‘ืขื™ื ื™ื™ื
ื•ืžื™ื“ื™ ืคืขื ืžืฉืคื™ืœ ืžื‘ื˜
ื›ืŸ, ื’ื ื”ื•ื ืžื‘ื™ืŸ ืœืคืขืžื™ื ืฉื–ื” ื›ื‘ืจ ืœื ื”ื’ื™ื•ื ื™
ื™ื•ื ืื—ื“ ืื ื™ ืื›ื™ืจ ืื•ืชื• ื›ื› ื˜ื•ื‘ ืฉืื ื™ ื•ื”ืกื‘ืœ ื ื”ื™ื” ื—ื‘ืจื™ื
ืื•ืœื™ ืืฆืœื™ื— ืœืฉื—ื“ ืื•ืชื• ื™ื•ื ืื—ื“ ืฉื™ืœืš ืœืžื™ืฉื”ื• ืื—ืจ
ื‘ื™ื ืชื™ื™ื ืื ื—ื ื• ืกื‘ื‘ื”, ืžืขืจื›ืช ื™ื—ืกื™ื ื–ื” ื“ื‘ืจ ื”ื“ื“ื™
ื‘ื™ื•ื ืฉื”ืคืกืงืชื™ ืœืฉื ื•ื ืื•ืชื• ื”ื•ื ื ื”ื™ื” ื™ื•ืชืจ ื ื—ืžื“
ืคืขื ื™ืฉื‘ื ื• ืœืฉื—ื ืฉ
ื”ื•ื ืืžืจ ืœื™ ืฉืื™ืŸ ืœื• ื—ื‘ืจื™ื ื‘ืฉื•ื ืžืงื•ื
ืงืฆืช ืจื™ื—ืžืชื™ ืขืœื™ื• ื‘ืื•ืชื• ืจื’ืข
ืื‘ืœ ืชืžื™ื“ ื”ื™ื™ืชื™ ื’ืจื•ืขื” ื‘ืœืขื•ื“ื“
ื•ืื™ื›ืฉื”ื•ื ืชืžื™ื“ ื›ื•ืœื ื‘ืื• ื‘ืกื•ืฃ ืืœื™ ืขื ื”ื‘ืขื™ื•ืช ืฉืœื”ื
ืื– ื”ื›ื ืชื™ ืœื• ืงืคื” ืฉื ืฉืคืš ืขืœ ื›ืœ ื”ื—ืฆืื™ืช ืฉืœื™
ื•ืืžืจืชื™ ืœื• ืฉืื ื”ื•ื ืฆืจื™ืš ืžืฉื”ื•
ืื ื™ ืชืžื™ื“ ื›ืืŸ ื‘ืฉื‘ื™ืœื•
ื•ืžืื– ื”ื•ื ืขื•ื“ ื‘ื ืืœื™
ืœืฉื—ื ืฉ ืงืฆืช, ืื• ืกืชื ืœื”ืชื ื—ืœ ืืฆืœื™ ืœื›ืžื” ื™ืžื™ื
ื•ืื– ื”ื•ื ื™ื•ืฆื ื”ื—ื•ืฆื” ืœื˜ื™ื™ืœ
ืœืฉืจื•ืง ืžื ื’ื™ื ื” ืžื•ื›ืจืช
ืฉืœ ื—ื™ื™ื ืฉืœื ื ื’ืžืจื•
(ืืช ื™ื•ื“ืขืช, ืœืžื™ืœื™ื ืฉืœืš ื™ืฉ ืžื ื’ื™ื ื” ืžืฉืœ ืขืฆืžืŸ.)ื—ืฆื™ ื—ืฆื™
ืžืžื‘ื™ืŸ ื”ื‘ื•ืจ ืœืžื™ื
(ืœื ื™ื“ืขืชื™)
ื‘ืขืฆื, ื–ื” ื›ื›ื” ืืฆืœ ื›ื•ืœืื‘ื™ืŸ ื”ื‘ื•ืจ ืœืžื™ื
ืื– ืื—ื“ื“, ืžื ื’ื™ื ื” ืžื™ื•ื—ื“ืช.ื—ืฆื™ ื—ืฆื™
ืื ื™ ืชื•ื”ื” ืื ื–ื” ืื›ืŸ ื›ื›ื” ืืฆืœ ื›ื•ืœื. ืื ื™ ื›ืŸ ื‘ื˜ื•ื—ื” ืฉื–ื” ื’ืœื•ื ื‘ื›ืœ ืื—ื“.
ืžืž...ื›ืŸื‘ื™ืŸ ื”ื‘ื•ืจ ืœืžื™ืืื—ืจื•ื ื”
ืื ื™ ืžื ื™ื—ื” ืฉืชื•ื“ื”

ืื™ื–ื” ืงื˜ืข ื–ื” ื—ืžื™ืฉื™xmasterx

ืžื™ ืžืื—ืœ ืฉื‘ืช ืฉืœื•ื ื‘ื—ืžื™ืฉื™ ื‘ื‘ื•ืงืจ

ื‘ืฆื”ืจื™ื

ืžื” ื™ื”ื™ื”

ืขื“ ื›ื“ื™ ื›ืš ื›ืœ ื”ื‘ื˜ื—ื•ืŸ ื”ืขื•ื“ืฃ ื”ื–ื” ืžืงื™ืฃ ืืชื›ื?

ืœืืŸ ื™ืฉ ืœืจื•ืฅ

ืœืžื” ืœืxmasterx

ืœืžื” ืœื ื”ื™ื•ื

ืžื” ืฉื‘ื˜ื— ื™ื‘ื•ื

ื›ื‘ืจ ืžื—ืจ

ื–ื” ื›ื ืจืื” ืื ืฉื™ื ืฉืžืื—ืœื™ื ืืช ื–ื”

ื™ื•ื“ืขื™ื ืฉื™ื‘ื•ื ืžื—ืจ ืื– ืžืชื—ื™ืœื™ื ื›ื‘ืจ ืžื”ื™ื•ื

ื›ืฉืจื•ืงืคื•ืจ ืฉืจื™ื ืืช ื–ื” ื–ื” ืขื•ื“ ื˜ื•ื‘

ืืคืฉืจ ืœืžืฉื•ืš ืืช ืฉื‘ืช ื’ื ืœืจืืฉื•ืŸ

ืœื”ืืจื™ืš ืืช ื”ืกื•ืฃ

ืื™ื–ื” ืฉืขื•ืŸ ื–ื”xmasterx

ืฉืขื•ืŸ ืงื™ืฅ

ืžื™ ื‘ื ื•ื™ ืœื—ื–ื•ืจ ื”ื‘ื™ืชื” ืžื”ืขื‘ื•ื“ื” ื›ืฉืขื•ื“ ืื•ืจ ืืžืฆืข ื”ื™ื•ื

ื’ื‘ืจ ืฆืจื™ืš ืœืขื‘ื•ื“ ื‘ืžื›ืจื•ืช ืžื”ื–ืจื™ื—ื”

ืœื—ื–ื•ืจ ืžืื•ื‘ืง ื”ื‘ื™ืชื” ื‘ืฉืงื™ืขื”

ื“ืžื“ื•ืžื™ื

ื”ืื™ืฉื” ืžื—ื›ื” ืœื•

ืžื›ื™ื ื” ืœื• ืžืฉื”ื• ืœืื›ื•ืœ

ื”ื•ื ื ื•ื”ื ืžืฉื”ื• ืœื ื‘ืจื•ืจ

ืžืขืฉืŸ ืงืฆืช

ื ื–ืจืง ืœื™ืฉื•ืŸ ืœืคื ื™ ืขื•ื“ ื™ื•ื ืฉื™ืœืš ืœืคืจื ืก ืืช ื›ื•ืœื ื‘ืขื‘ื•ื“ื” ืงืฉื”

ืžืกื•ื›ื ืช

ืžื›ืจื•ืช ื”ื™ื”ืœื•ืžื™ื ื‘ืžื™ืจ

ื‘ืžื›ืจื•ืช ื”ืืœื” ืืคืฉืจ ืœื”ื™ืฉืื‘ ืคื ื™ืžื”xmasterxืื—ืจื•ื ื”

ื–ื” ืœื ืกืชื ืžืกื•ื›ืŸ ื–ื” ื—ื•ืจ ืฉื—ื•ืจ ืฉืœื ื˜ืกื™ื ืžืขืœื™ื•

ืžื™ ืฉืžืชืงืจื‘ ืžืฆื™ืฅ ื•ื ืคื’ืข

ื—ื•ืฉืš ืกื™ื‘ื™ืจื™ ืงืคื•ื ื‘ืžื™ื ื•ืก 40

ืขื•ืœืžื•ืช ื”ืืกื•ืฆื™ืืฆื™ื” ื›ืืŸ ืžืจืชืงื™ื

ื”ื™ื™ืชื™ ืžื’ืœื” ืืช ื”ืขื•ืœื ื”ื–ื”

ืขื•ืœื ื—ื“ืฉ

ืขื•ืœื ื—ื“ืฉ ืฆืจื™ืš ืœื”ื™ื›ื ืก ืืœื™ื• ื‘ืชืฉื•ืงื”

ื’ื™ืœื•ื™

ืœืฆืขื•ื“ ืขืœื™ื• ื™ื—ืฃ

ืœืขื‘ื•ืจ ื‘ืชื•ื›ื•

ืœื—ืงื•ืจ ื•ืœื—ืฉื•ืฃ ื”ื›ืœ

ืœื‘ื•ื ืœืžืงื•ืจ ื”ืžื™ื ื•ืœืฉืชื•ืช ืžืžื ื• ื”ื›ืœ

ืœื˜ืขื•ื ืืช ืžื” ืฉื™ืฉ ืœื”ืฆื™ืข

ื–ื” ืœื ืขื ื™ืŸ ืฉืœ ื™ืคื” ืื• ื˜ืขื™ื ื–ื” ื”ืจื‘ื” ืžืขื‘ืจ

..ื“ืฃ ืชืœื•ืฉ

87%

In two days

And I'll probably finish it today


.This is fucked up


What the fuck is wrong with me 

..ื“ืฃ ืชืœื•ืฉ

I hate myself about it

I feel like I'm doing something forbidden

But it's not


 

Why am I so hard on myself about it


 

I hate how much I enjoy it 

..ื“ืฃ ืชืœื•ืฉืื—ืจื•ื ื”

I feel like shit



I want to run away to the beach

I want to sleep forever

I don't know

.Fuck

ืœืžื” ื–ื” ื›ื‘ืจ ืœื ืขื•ื‘ื“ืžืฉื™ื— ื ืื• ื‘ืคื•ืž!
ืื—ืจื™ ื›ืœ ื”ืชืจืžื•ื“ื™ื ืžื™ืงื” ื•ื”ืžื˜ืจื™ืงืกxmasterx

ื—ื™ื™ื‘ ืœืชืช ื›ื™ืกื•ื™ ืœื›ืœ ื–ื” ื•ืœื”ืžืฉื™ืš ืœืขื‘ื•ื“ ืงืฉื”

ื—ื•ืฅ ืžื’ื ื™ื˜ื™ืงื” ื•ืื™ืจื•ืขื™ ื—ื™ืจื•ื ื“ื™ืกื˜ื•ืคื™ื™ื ื™ื•ืฆืื™ ื“ื•ืคืŸ ื‘ืžืžืœื›ืช ื”ืคื™ื–ื™ืงื” ื”ื‘ื™ื•ืœื•ื’ื™ืช ื ื ืฆื— ื”ื›ืœ.

ื”ื—ื•ื ื”ื–ื” ืžืื•ืก ื•ืžืขืฆื‘ืŸ ืื‘ืœ ื™ืฉ ื’ื ื™ืชืจื•ื ื•ืช ื‘ืœื”ื–ื™ืข ื›ืœ ื›ืš ื”ืจื‘ื” ื‘ืื™ืžื•ืŸ ื•ืœืขื‘ื•ื“ ืงืฉื” ืœืฆืืช ืœืฉืžืฉ ืœื”ื–ื™ื– ืืช ื”ืžื›ื•ื ื” ื”ื—ื•ืจืงืช ื‘ื’ืœืœ ืชืขื•ืงืช ืžืคืจืงื™ื


ื‘ื ื•ืกืฃ ืœื›ืœ ื–ื” ืฆืจื™ืš ืœืžืฆื•ื ืžื•ื–ื™ืงื” ืžืชืื™ืžื” ื•ืกืคืจื•ืช ื ื•ืจืžืœื™ืช ืœืขืจื‘ื™ื ื—ืกืจื™ ืžืกืš ืื•ืœื˜ืจื ืื™ื ืคืจื” ืžื›ืฉืฃ ื‘ืขื™ื ื™ื™ื ื›ื™ ื”ืฉื™ื ื” ื’ื ื—ืฉื•ื‘ื” ืžืกืชื‘ืจ

ืื ื™ ื›ื•ืชื‘ ืœืขืฆืžื™ ื•ื—ื•ืฉื‘ ืชื•ืš ื›ื“ื™ ืื ื›ืœ ื–ื” ืœื ื’ื“ื•ืœ ืขืœื™

ื›ื ืจืื” ืฉืœื ืื‘ืœ ื ืฆื˜ืจืš ืœืขืฉื•ืช ื”ืชืืžื•ืช

ืื–xmasterx

ื ืื›ืœ ื‘ื™ืฆื™ื ื•ื‘ืฉืจ ื›ืœ ื”ื™ื•ื

ื ื–ื™ื– ื‘ืจื–ืœื™ื

ื ืฉืžืข ืžื•ื–ื™ืงื”

ื ื™ืฉืŸ ื ื•ืจืžืœื™

ื”ืืœื›ื•ื”ื•ืœ ื™ื™ื›ื ืก ืœืžื™ื“ื” ืžืื•ื–ื ืช, ืœืคื—ื•ืช ื‘ืžื”ืœืš ื”ืฉื‘ื•ืข

ืขื›ืฉื™ื• ื“ื™ ืœื“ื‘ืจ ืขืœ ื–ื” ื›ืžื• ืื™ื–ื” ื’ื™ื™ ืฉืžืขืœื” ื’ืจื” ืขืฆืžื™ืช ื•ืžืœืงืง ืœืขืฆืžื• ืชืชื—ืช ื›ืžื• ืื™ื–ื” ื—ืชื•ืœ

ืฆืจื™ืš ืœื—ื–ื•ืจ ืœืคื™ืœื•ืกื•ืคื™ื” ื›ื™ ื’ื ื”ื ืคืฉ ืžืชืืžื ืช

ื›ืœ ืื•ืคื ืช ื”ื—ื™ืคื•ืฉ ื”ืขืฆืžื™ ื”ื–ื”xmasterx

ืคื—ื—

ืืช ืžื™ ืืชื ืžื—ืคืฉื™ื

ื‘ืžืงื•ื ืœื—ืคืฉ ืœื›ื• ืœื™ืฆื•ืจ ืืช ืขืฆืžื›ื ืื™ืŸ ืžื” ืœืžืฆื•ื ื™ืฉ ืžื” ืœื™ืฆื•ืจ ื•ืœื‘ืจื•ื

ืžื” ืฆื•ืจื›ื™ื ื‘ืฉื‘ื™ืœ ืœืื›ืœืก ืืช ื”ืชื•ื“ืขื” ื”ืžื‘ื•ืœื‘ืœืช ื”ื–ืืช

ืžื” ืจื•ืื™ื ืžื” ืงื•ืจืื™ื ืžื” ืฉื•ืžืขื™ื

ืžื•ืชืจ ื›ื‘ืจ ืœื”ื’ื™ื“ ืขืจืกื™ื ืื• ืฉื–ื” ืœื ืคื•ืœื™ื˜ื™ืงืœื™ ืงื•ืจืงื˜

ืœืžื™ ืื›ืคืช

ื”ื™ืขืฉื” ืžื” ืฉื”ื™ื ืš

ืืœื ืื ื›ืŸ ืืชื” ื—ืกืจ ืื•ื ื” ืงื“ืžื™ืช ื•ื–ื” ื‘ื•ืœื˜ ืื‘ืœ ื ืกืœื—

ืื™ื–ื” ืื ืจื’ื™ื•ืช ืฉืœ ื™ื•ืxmasterx

ื—ื•ื“ืฉ ืื™ื™ืจ

ืกื•ืฃ ืืคืจื™ืœ

ืžื–ืœ ืฉื•ืจ ืฉื—ื•ืจืฉ ื‘ื™ืกื•ื“ ื”ืื“ืžื”

ืžืจื’ื™ืฉื™ื ืืช ื›ื•ื—ื•ืช ื”ื™ืฆื™ืจื” ื•ื”ืคืจื™ื•ืŸ ื‘ืื•ื•ื™ืจ

ืœื›ืŸ ื”ื›ืœ ืขื•ืœื” ื•ื‘ื•ืขื˜ ื•ืจืง ืจื•ืฆื” ืœื”ื—ืคื™ืฅ ื•ืœืงื—ืช ืœื™ื–ื•ื ื•ืœืคืขื•ืœ

ืื™ื™ืจ ื–ื” ืื•ืจ ื–ื” ื–ื™ื•

ืื ื™ ืžืขื“ื™ืฃ ืืช ื”ื—ื•ืฉืš ื•ื”ืื•ืคืœ ืื‘ืœ ื‘ืฉื‘ื™ืœ ืœื”ืจื’ื™ืฉ ืื•ืชื• ืฆืจื™ืš ืื•ืจ

ืฉืจ ื”ื˜ื‘ืขื•ืช > ื”ืืจื™ ืคื•ื˜ืจxmasterxืื—ืจื•ื ื”

ื–ื” ืกืชื ื‘ืœื™ ืงืฉืจ

ื•ื’ื ืžืคื•ืจืกื ื•ื™ื“ื•ืข ื•ืœื ื‘ืืžืช ื ืฆืจืš ืœื•ืžืจ

ืขื›ืฉื™ื• ืงืฆืช ื‘ื•ืงื•ื‘ืกืงื™ ื‘ืฉื‘ื™ืœ ื”ื ืฉื™ืžื” ื•ืื– ืœืขื‘ื•ื“ื” ื‘ื—ื–ืจื”

"ื›ื™ ืœืคืขืžื™ื ื—ื™ื™ื‘ื™ื ืœื”ืฉืชื™ืŸ ื‘ื›ื™ื•ืจ"

ืžื™ ื›ื•ืชื‘ ื›ื›ื”?

ืื• ื‘ืžื™ืœื™ื ืื—ืจื•ืช

"ื”ืื ืืชื” ื™ื›ื•ืœ ืœื–ื›ื•ืจ ืžื™ ื”ื™ื™ืช ืœืคื ื™ ืฉื”ืขื•ืœื ืืžืจ ืœืš ืžื™ ืืชื” ืฆืจื™ืš ืœื”ื™ื•ืช?"

ื–ื” ืœื ืžื’ื™ืข ืœื™ื›ึผึฐืงึถื“ึถื
..ื“ืฃ ืชืœื•ืฉ
I'm freaking out and I don't know why
..ื‘ื™ื—ื“ ื ื ืฆื—

ื™ืฉ ื‘ื™ ืืช ื”ืคื—ื“ ืœืคืขืžื™ื

ืฉืื ื™ ื ื•ืชื ืช ื•ืžืชืจื•ืงื ืช- ืžืงืจื™ื‘ื”


ืื ื™ ืืคื™ืœื• ื™ื•ื“ืขืช ื‘ืขืฆื

ืื—ืจื™ 6 ื—ื•ื“ืฉ ืื™ื ื˜ื ืกื™ื‘ื™ื™ื

ืฉื›ืจื’ืข ื–ื” ื—ืฆื” ืงืฆืช ืืช ื”ืื”ื‘ื”

ื›ืจื’ืข ื–ื• ื”ืงืจื‘ื”.

ืื ื™ ืœื ื—ื•ืฉื‘ืช ืฉื–ื” ืžืฉื”ื• ื˜ื•ื‘,ืืฃ ืคืขื

ืื‘ืœ ืžืฆื“ ืฉื ื™

ืœืคืขืžื™ื ื›ืฉืืชื” ืื•ื”ื‘ ืžื™ืฉื”ื•

ืฆืจื™ืš ืœื“ืขืช ื’ื ืœื”ืงืจื™ื‘,ื‘ืจืžื” ื”ืื™ืฉื™ืช

ื•ื›ืฉืืชื” ืื•ื”ื‘ ืžืฉื”ื• ื’ื“ื•ืœ ื‘ืฆื•ืจื” ื›ื–ืืช

ื›ืžื• ืžื“ื™ื ื”,ื•ืฆื‘ื

ืœืคืขืžื™ื,ื–ื” ืœื ืžืกืคื™ืง ืจืง ืื”ื‘ื” 

--ืžื—ื›ื” ืœืจื—ืžื™ื~

ืงื•ืžื™ ืื”ื•ื‘ืชื™

ืงื•ืžื™

ื™ืฉ ืœืš ืขื•ื“ ืœื—ื™ื•ืช

ืืช ืขื•ื“ ืชื”ื™ื™

ื•ืชื—ื™ื™

ื™ื”ื™ื” ืœืš ื˜ื•ื‘

ื›ืœ ื›ืš ื˜ื•ื‘

๐Ÿค

--ืžื—ื›ื” ืœืจื—ืžื™ื~

ืืช ืชื”ื™ื™

ืื ื™ ืžื‘ื˜ื™ื—ื” ืœืš

ืืช ืชื”ื™ื™ ื•ื™ื”ื™ื” ืœืš

ื™ื”ื™ื” ืœืš ื”ื›ืœ

ืืช ืชื”ื™ื™ ื”ื›ืœ

ืืช ื›ื‘ืจ ื”ื›ืœ

ืืช ืขื•ืœื

ืขื•ืœื ืฉืœื ื•ื ืกืชืจ

ืืœ ืชืชื ื™ ืœื• ืœืจืกืง ืื•ืชืš

ื™ืฉ ืœืš ืขื•ื“ ื—ื™ื™ื ืœื—ื™ื•ืช

ืงื•ืžื™ ืื”ื•ื‘ื”

ื›ื™ ื‘ื ืื•ืจืš

ืงื•ืžื™ ืœื–ืจื•ื—

๐Ÿค

....ืฆืืฆืืื—ืจื•ื ื”

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