?Do you still do that now
...No
But he did eventually
And maybe I will too
And I don't want to
But it seems that's going that way
I know I can't
I'm clean 918 days
And I can't break it
I want to
And also don't want to
I can't have more scars
I asked her if I can go put on a jacket and she asked if I'm cold and I said yes but I actually wasn't cold
I just needed to cover myself
Next week we are going on vacation and she told me to bring a bathing suit and maybe I will but don't see myself actually wearing it
Not with this body
I don't even know if it fits me now
Last time I wore it was a year ago
And I grew since then
Fuck it
I don't want this vacation anyway
I told her I don't want this and she asked why and I said a very vague answer
I don't want this because I don't want anything right now
I just wanna get into bed and never get out
Oy tatte
I'm exhausted
I need to clean now and I have zero energy for that
.I hate it
God help me
Save me from myself please
?Okay
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