I want to get better
Danm it I want to get better
Or maybe I'm not
Maybe I don't care anymore
Maybe it's all too much for me
Maybe I should go live alone and escape the whole world
Maybe I should * myself
Maybe no one cares about me
I want to * so bad
It's been 950 days now
And I wanna break it so bad
It's gonna mess up my whole future I know
?But do I even have a future
Maybe I'm screwed so bad that I shouldn't even try
And maybe it's the * talking right now
But damn it I wanna * myself right now
I finished a whole carton of cigarettes in this weekend and I don't care
I don't wanna eat right now and I have to
Fuck it
I wanna run away from this place
I'm reading a really sad book and maybe it's affecting me
God I hate myself
Are you even exist? Or you just a made up stuff of people who are too sad and have to made up some crap about a divine being
Aaaaaaaaaaa I want to run away
I have to eat and then I have to clean and I hate this and I hate myself and I feel like letting go
Aaaaaaaaaaa I wanna scream and disappear
God if you're exist please help me
(Don't worry about me I'll be fine
Or maybe not)
